The Unwanted

i am SUPPOSED to do my work today
work are piling up and they don’t seem planning to reduce by themselves in a blink of an eye
i was doing research on my Techopreneurship module project report
i MUST finish the first draft by tonight
searching through wikipedia on the history of photography, which is the topic of our report, i found Silver nitrate, which has something to do with photography in their early stages
scrolling down, Silver nitrate was actually mentioned in the Five People You Meet In Heaven by Mitch Albom. how weird. like that also related.
so i clicked on the book link, trying to recall the ’syiokness’ when i was reading it
a good book indeed.
naturally, went to click on Mitch Albom’s name. read his biography and found out that Tuesday with Morrie is actually a book based on true story
Mitch Albom was indeed a sports columnist before and his professor was actually Morrie Schwartz, suffered from Amyotrophic lateral sclerosis (ALS) and he was also featured in the ABC’s nightline.
( oklar. pardon my lack of general knowledge to only find all these out now. )
and after all these, only i realized i have wasted my time surfing on the net on things that aren’t related to my report.
ish! evil Internet!

‘ you need to take the picture like this and from this angle, you will look like you have lost a few pounds’
*demonstrating excitedly*
‘ ohh..really eh..’

come to think of it, there is nothing to be proud of showing a Master student how to cam-whore in a way to make yourself look thinner.
it made me curse myself for the stupidity
i feel stupid
it has nothing to be proud of, seriously
seriously….

there is nothing i am capable of that i am proud of myself
when you think of me, you will find it hard how to define me as a person
not the physical appearance but rather the personality itself
even friends have troubling relating me to something i am good at

i remembered…
‘ when you think of her, how do you define her as a person?’
‘ her long long hair..’

since i have cut my hair short and tied it up 24/7
how do you define me now?
whatever it is. im not convinced.
coz you have taken more than enough to think of an answer that would actually convince yourself

My favorite lecture of the semester is from Understanding the Universe.
He is so passionate in the Astronomy field that you can see the fire burning inside him
serious!
I heard many students were driven by his passion and even bought binoculars for star gazing… =.=
Bimbo Leong and Ms. Novee definitely do not allow this way of using the money
” do you know how many clothes i can buy with that amount of money???!!”

anyway, Ms. Novee and I went to consult the lecturer on the topic of our project report
when finished, i said ‘ see? he is soooooo super nice…he was smiling all the time when we talked to him’
Ms. Novee ‘ excuse me? No lor! it was because his teeth were jutting out and makes you think that he is smiling at you!’
*feeling water splashing from the top*
‘but i still like him…do you think he is married?’
‘ umm…maybe yes maybe no. y? does it matter?’
‘nothing. jst asking. how come ppl against teacher-student being together? do you think there is anything wrong?’
‘ umm…i don’t think anything is wrong with that. plus its Uni level now. should be ok bah.’

what the hell! now comes to think of it, is that even a conversation Ms Novee??
i hope nobody was eavesdropping.
so shy!