The Unwanted

I am sorry people…
for those who have been asking me to go out for dinner and stuff
I just don’t feel like going out at all for these few days
I just wish to stay in my room and stone throught the day
sigh…

this is the time when everyone is rushing for their assignments and projects
i have one cultural intellengence video project (MNO1001) needs to be handed in this coming week
i have yet another Singapore Studies essay coming out
and we have not even done any research
how great can life be?
and not to forget
exam is coming
don’t you see the notice at PGP saying that Seminar Rooms and Reading Rooms will be open 24 hours starting from 25th October?
i am now waiting for OSA to send us the email saying YIH Study Room is jumping into the bandwagon as well

i slept very late last night
trying to finish up the video editing for my CQ video
it has been ages since i last slept so late
when the alarm rang this morning
i was amazed how fast myself can wake up without sleeping through the alarm ringing
or switching off the alarm and *pak* back to bed and sleep
which is very typical of me
the effects came after that
i was squeezing the toothpaste out of the Colgate
without noticing it
i was like a zombie
i kept squeezing and stoned there
haha…
when i started to recover from my ’stoning’
the whole sink was filled with toothpaste
so much for cutting down my budget UH??

life could not be any worse starting from now on
you can see people mugging all night long
and the stressful aura is coming to haunt PGP

this is not the life i have actually dreamt of
Uni life is supposed to be FUN FUN FUN and FUN!!!
but now all i can feel is BUSY BUSY BUSY, STRESS STRESS STRESS!!
I find myself looking out of the window and start imagining if i were to be in local Uni ..more often
i wonder how my life would be then
*Waves away thought*
too late to regret or do anything now
my senior once told me ‘ Sometimes i wonder whether it is worth to get a good degree from a prestigious University ( 19th in World Ranking), but to give away all the best and most precious time of my life for it….’
coz once you are in NUS, to me, you don’t really have a chance to enjoy the best time of your life now
not to say living it to the fullest
rushing for assignments, going for lectures and tutorials, are not the things i find satisfaction in at all

and talking about lecture..time to go..
good luck GALS! and also to all the poor souls stucked in NUS…

I am currently taking General Biology as my breadth
it is fun in the sense that we have no tutorials but lab sessions every week
however, i hate lab assigments
it has been quite some time since i did any lab session
back in secondary, i never have a chance in dissecting little animals (not that i want to!)
i think i would probably cry during the whole lab session if i were told to do so

biology has always been one of my favourite subjects in school
i never fail to read the whole textbook again and again
and now i ended up in arts
coz i am never good in chemistry you see

last week, in lab, i got to examine fruit flies “Drosophila”
we got the chance to see them through microscope
some were even being mutated with white eyes, wrinkled wings
can’t you imagine looking at them in high resolution with BIG RED EYES and HAIRY LEGS??!!!
*gulps*
i even saw a female fly laying eggs!!!
what a scene!
i actually pitied the mother fly you see
coz they had been anaesthetised
they were too weak to fly after that process
and yet the mother fly had to lay the eggs out
however, it was definitely an eye opening lab session
next week, we are going to examine zebra fish
can’t wait!

p/s: although this module is fun, but it is very hard to score. sigh..it is all about choosing the right module to help you to score in NUS.
don’t even think about choosing modules that you like blindly. coz you can die very hard…

it seems this semester
compared to the last 2 previous semesters
i seldom use my EZ-link card
there is no need to top it up so often as i don go out much nowadays
feel like buying some fruits this week
feel like goin to NTUC for some groceries shopping
feel like goin out to breathe in some fresh air instead of the same old ’stressful air’ i am breathing everyday in NUS

‘lets go out for groceries shopping this week!!! *with damn enthu tone*
GLARED. STARED. *thinking that, ‘are you out of your mind?’ *
‘ ok. i better keep quiet….’

‘ whatz for dinner tonight?’
‘wat else?? food court lor..’
‘ no arr. can go georgies, foodcourt, K gourmet cafe, the pond behind ‘
‘ THE POND?’
‘ yea. chow chow vegetarian mar…eat those plants down the pond lar..’
‘…..’
‘ oh oh oh !!!!! one more choice!! it is wednesday!! go double O for dinner!!! *damn enthu AGAIN*
‘ ……. YOU SIAO ARR??!! go yourself! ‘
‘ HUH??!!! i said go double O , you called me siao?? ask me go MYSELF?? ‘
‘yealar…u so free arr?? no need to study arr?’
‘ *gulps* am i reading what i am reading now??? YOU WOR??!!! GOD!! what have NUS turn you into??!!! yerrr…so NERDY!!!’

see?? what have NUS turn us into?? one who has once been wanting to go out most of the time, shopping, clubbing…now calling the damn enthu one siao for having the slightest thought of going out?? this is certainly not rite.
therefore, do your beloved ones a favour. Do not ask them to come to THIS place. it will do them good. TRUST ME.

i am falling sick. having a little sore throat. right after my exam. shall be thankful or wat??
dunno whether it is due to the haze or not

it is already almost the end of semester
finals coming soon
later, you will start getting emails that YIH study room and PGP reading rooms opening for 24 hours
not a good sign, serious
and yet, asking myself. so how was my semester been so far?
i could not recall anything but attending lectures, tutorials everyday
meeting deadlines, project meetings,…….
gosh! we are turning into robots, doing exactly the same thing every semester
and when you finally graduate from NUS, you have successfully transform into one

Have you ever seen a person for the very first time..
and you got the feeling that you have known the person for a very long time?

NUS is having a blood donation drive in Multi Purpose Hall these few days
I have always wanted to donate blood
however…I am scared..
yea. called me coward..
not that I am afraid of blood ok..??
just that, it seems scary to see yourself lying down with blood flowing out of your vessels into a huge bag
and you can see the bag is getting fuller and fuller with YOUR BLOOD!!!
it is scary lar!!!
i remember last time when i was in secondary school
we had a blood test or something in school
everyone is supposed to draw out a small tube of blood to be tested for watever it was
seriously, i was not scared at that moment.
however, the girl in front of me was so nervous about the whole blood testing thingy
her face was damn pale
can see that she was damn scared lor
then hor…
guess what
when it was her turn
SHE FAINTED!!!!
she was then being taken away
and it was MY TURN!!!
gosh!
i was like *gulp*

sigh…how how how
shall i go or shall i not??
is it painful??
will i get dizzy??
i am scared…seriously…
i know i am being useless here
and..
i heard that after donating blood
one will put on weight!!!
IS IT SO???!!!!
don scare me wei
sigh…
one more reason pull out rite?
*guilty*

sobs sobs..
i really want to go for it..
but but but……………….