The Unwanted

just had my dinner at the same old PGP food court AGAIN…
i am not trying to be ungrateful here
as many people out there are dying because of hunger every second

we took such a long time to decide what to eat
“what to eat?’
“dunno…”
5 minutes later..
“what to eat arr??”
’still dunno..”
10 minutes later..
“what are you going to eat?”
“i think i will go take a walk to decide…”
“but you walk along those stalls everyday!!!”

please don’t remind me of NUS food…
that thought makes me wanna **** (puke, mind you!)

Ipoh food….
i miss you…
come to me ..
come to me..

Sunday breakfast outings are the best
especially when my parents are the ones paying the bill
ngek ngek..

MING COURT DIM SUM!!

slurrpps… glutinuos rice with mushroom..

Siu mai!!

egg tarts…my all time favourite

Har gao! loving it.. i love prawns!

prawns filling again!

fa sang wu (peanut dessert) and black sesame…as desserts

i never mind waking up early on sundays for breakfast..
can’t wait! can’t wait!

it is the mid semester break now
having one week holiday
only means more readings to catch up, more project meetings…
but i am glad that i slacked the whole day yesterday
i felt so much better after having to slack a whole day without doing any work
i have been very stress lately
not having much sleep
i did some catch up on my sleep
and i am amazed by how great amount of qualities i possesed resemble me as a pig
who cares!!

have been doing some clickings in Friendster lately
due to the lack of time
i don usually visit Friendster that much
however, i did visit it that day
and realized how much i have missed out
missed out in the sense that
not realizing how much fun ppl are having in their lives
how much my friends have changed due to the lifestyle in KL and peer pressure as well
i wondered… how much would i change under those conditions..
not having a car in Singapore
not having much money ( in the sense of the currency rate) to spend on shopping
not having much places to go in Singapore
not having the time to go out and have all the fun without thinking of the almost-due assignments and piling-up readings
i guess…we don really have the chance to change much in NUS
EXCEPT..me, putting on more weight as days go by
having to attend ABT (Abdomen, Butt and Thigh) training lessons
i am not a greedy person you see
i don expect results looking like Jessica Alba or anything
however, the least i would expect from people would be..’ have you put on weight lately AGAIN??!!’
*&(*#$^#($)^#%&%^(#*^#%(#^%
damn the oily food in NUS!!!

I ran into a senior today
had a brief chat with him
and..
he is in the dean’s list
i can see some of you widen your eyes
who would not want to be in the dean’s list rite?
well, since he is a senior AND in the dean’s list as well
i find myself tend to take his words more seriously
i dunno why
maybe i feel that those who are in the dean’s list are smarter? wiser? more knowledgable?

is that how we judge a person?
whether he or she is in the dean’s list?
whether he or she has a high CAP?
and is it because of the above 2 points..
we have a certain level of respect for them?
what about a person’s personality?
does it take into account anymore?
a person with a kind heart,
a person who is extraordinary helpful,
a person with a strong character,
a person with great personalities……
with a not-so-high CAP

there comes a person…
with the CAP higher than 4.0
*eyes widen*
in the dean’s list
*eyes widen more* + ‘Serious??!!!’

which one of them would you TEND take advice more seriously?
which one of them would you TEND to fancy more?
which one of them would you TEND to respect more?

i am not saying all
but i personally feel that
this is the way how people judge you in NUS
this is the way you impress others in NUS

agree with me?

my life has been pretty much the same

how was yours?

i had a small chat with my friend that day
during the last year’s second semester
i remembered her telling me she wants to major in Social Work
i secretly admire those who want to major in Social Work
i dunno..i somehow feel that it is not going to be an easy field
it requires a lot of patience, caring, helpful, determined and the skill in handling social issues
and not to forget, the passion in Social Work
i have to admit, i like being helpful
however, not to the extend to being a social worker as my future career

well…unfortunately..i met her again a few days ago
i asked her about how the major is like now
she told me she has changed her major to Communications and New Media (CNM)
the reason was simple
‘it is very difficult to get good grades in Social work. if you were to get good grades, major in CNM’
tat sounds very tempting to me
coz i don seem to be getting good grades either
maybe i should consider as well
*waves away thought*
no no no
thats not wat i wanted to say
wat i wanted to say is that What a Waste!
because of the reality of the society
we have lost a potential social worker in the future to come
i actually feel sad about it
there is nothing we can do though
getting good grades is the main objective for us, the students in NUS
no good grades, no talk
‘ nah…grades are not about everything…’
‘ come on..they don just look at ur degree certificate to judge you’
wake up people!!
coz that does not work in Singapore

Since school has started
i have never visited the Buona Vista MRT station for quite some time
for those of you who do not know
usually, if we were to travel out to places like Orchard..
we would need to take a bus to Buona Vista MRT station in order to get on a train to Orchard
not to say Buona Vista
i have not been taking any public transport including the bus lately
i miss those times when we were able to have the time to go out shopping for groceries
i miss having fresh fruits in my fridge

work is piling up everyday
there is never ending readings to catch up with
freaking difficult tutorial questions to deal with ( at least to me it is difficult)
never able to sleep well
always stressing like hell
knowing that one week has passed
and a new whole pile of work is coming to me again
i need to breathe!!!

it is only year 2
and we are busy like hell
i can’t imagine year 3
guess we need to be emotionally prepared

looking back at the photos we took last year
when we were all fresh and excited
compared to the photos we took recenlty
i secretly feel that i have aged
really one!!
my look is like kinda worn out
i look jaded in most of the photos
yea yea…say that im thinking too much uh??

it seems fun to study in Singapore at first
a totally new environment and everything
however, i failed to consider the consequences…

Since I am such a good fren of yours
I shall temporary quench your thirst

since it is in RED. >.<

so..you know what to do lar Mr. Newbie.
if you are reading this. *hint hint*

5 Years ago
today, which was 11/9..
I just can’t believe it has been 5 years
I wondered..how are the families to the victims are doing right now
I certainly hope that they have moved on and be able to lead a happy life
It still saddens me…though 5 years have passed.

Confirmed dead: 2948

[Rest in peace..]

Almost all student exchange has been telling me
how beautiful the beaches in Malaysia are
yet.. I have never been to Redang, Tioman, Langkawi, Perhentian
Guess the most recent one would be Pulau Pangkor which was almost 1 and a half years ago

Totally miss playing around the beach
Totally miss lying on the beach talking aimlessly with friends
Totally miss the nights to the beach, counting on the uncountable stars

School has finally started after the 3-month long holiday
The holiday was fun
coz I am able to slack all I want without having to feel guilty
which means, School sucks
It is already the 4th week of school
Tutorials are starting already
and I am having the same feeling all over again
A mix of Sienness, Stress, Pressure, Tired, Unmotivated…
I really used to think University life would be the best time of my life
That’s what adults say RITE??
CRAP!!! HELL CRAP!!!
I miss my form6 life
Although it was just one and the half year
i have never felt happier in school
ACS might not be the best school ever
However, the memories there were great
I miss going for my Accounting and Economics tuition in Old Town
Having the chance to drink Old Town White Coffee all the time
Eating all the great food in Ipoh
Driving my mum’s car to places I want to go
Meeting friends outside, or inside their house
Yes, I miss my form 6 life
It is sad to admit that people do grow up and things do change
We have to move on or shall i say ‘Move with the Cheese’
Thatz what it says in the book ‘ Who Moved My Cheese?’

This semester is even worse
Having freshies around is undeniably fun
However…seeing them everywhere in the library, reading room, study room
is no fun at all
They are stressing me..
I feel stressed
I mean, if seniors were to busy studying
I can take that lor
But then. FRESHIES wor!!!!!
Guess the problem lies in me but not them
What’s wrong with being so hardworking, starting early with school work rite???

The first day of my school was bad
It was raining like cats and dogs
and I was pratically all wet when I reached my lecture theatre
Can’t even wear my cardigan as it was all wet
so much for the first day of school
It was General Biology class in Science Faculty
LT 32!!!! (*&&*^^%%&&**&(*^&&
I actually had to take the long way to reach there
and me, being an arts student
I don’t go wander around in Science Faculty normally
How the hell to know the LONG way to LT32!!!~!
Being all wet and feeling so lost in Science Faculty
THANK GOODNESS!!!
I saw Susan.
PHEW!
” I hate Science Faculty!!!’ i yelled
” bwahhahaaha” laughed Susan
$#$#^%&$&&(**&*&$$%$#$#
and I finally reached LT 32…

It is always nice to reminisce the good old days.. =D