wHAtZ wRoNg wItH mE??!
i don feel rite
i knew something is wrong
but i dunno why
coz nowadays i don feel hyper, happy or cheerful
as if im sinking into deep depression
all i want to do is just stay in my room
lying on my comfy bed doing nothing
it is as if everyday im living for no purpose
as if im not looking forward to anything nothing at all
is it becoz i can sense that im gonna screw up this semester again?
NO!!! i cnt think tat
i must be OPTIMISTIC
the semester has not even started yet
and im giving up???!!
THATZ NOT THE WAY!!!
well, going to turn 21 soon( no intention to remind anything though)
guess growing up is a cruel thing
coz the more grown up you are
the more things you will be witnessing yourself
like how realistic this world can be
im starting to lose myself
or should i say, im lost already?
im upset the fact that one has to change in order to survive in this cruel world
i can see myself changing
changing into someone that i no longer familiar with
which im very upset with
coz i miss myself
but need to remind myself at the same time
that there is no way i can return
i need to fight back
i need to stand up for myself
i need to hug my bunny and go to bed…to avoid myself again
