The Unwanted

talked to a fren today
found out that she has applied to change faculty in the new intake this coming August
she is in Life Science in NUS now
but Medicine is what she has always wanted to do
and i have also just found out that, Life Sciences graduates cant further their studies to become doctors in Singapore,unless you go overseas..
is that so?
im not sure but thatz what i heard from others
thatz why she is changing faculty
it seemed that she applied last year
could not get into Medicine
so, she is trying again this year

sigh…

im wishing her luck from the very bottom of my heart
coz i really admire those who really know what they want to be in life, what they wanna study and what they want in life
coz, im unable to answer those questions after years of searching
how i wish im able to find out what my passion is
so that i could really look forward to it, aiming for it, working hard for it…
sadly, i don even have an answer for what my passion is, what more to say having an aim or a target…forget about working hard for it..
thatz why, i really really hate myself
im goin to be 21 years old
ADULT!!!!
what a shame for not knowing what i want in life
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YES!! im indeed frustrated!!!

i went for social visits during my midterm break for my Social Work module
i remembered one of the social workers was being asked by one of the NUS undergraduates
‘ what makes you wanna take up social work as your major?’
well, the social worker later then told us her struggle in choosing her major back in NUS
at first, she was stuck in between social work and psychology
however, later, she found out that social work is her true calling
thats why, she chose to major in social work and never regret after that

WHAT THE HECK!!!ISNT THAT GREAT????
BEING ABLE TO KNOW YOUR TRUE CALLING?????
COZ I DUN EVEN KNOW MINE~!!!!!!!!!

sigh….

itz totally depressing

im so very the URGH!!! ashame of myself

doing my financial accounting project
it is driving me nuts!!!
it takes up A LOT of my time
and finals is jst around the corner
i can visual myself screw up my finals again
i can SEE it
ARGH!!!

okok. i shall stop now. don wan you all to think i have become an angry woman.

if any of my juniors were to consider coming to NUS…
do DEEPLY, when i say DEEPLY, i really mean DEEPLY consider it THOROUGHLY

today, i had a small chat with a fren of mine who is in the same lecture as im for my Introduction to Social Work module. she was waiting for her senior before the lecture. because she wanted to pass something to her senior’s father. father?? yea. kinda confusing uh? rupa-rupanya, my fren used to work in the National University Hospital and her senior’s father was back then a patient of the hospital. it was a sad way to know a person because the uncle was suffering from cancer. it was already at the terminal stage.

therefore, she wished to pass a small little gift to her senior’s father as a blessing from her. it was a very sweet thing for her to do. i felt touched and sorry at the same time for her senior. it is something really awful to see someone u love so much to leave u soon. however, my fren told me the gift was not an expensive one. in fact, she cant even afford to buy any expensive things. she must learn to save more.

while waiting, we chatted about our interest. music was her interest. although she did not have any chance to learn any intruments, she likes arts and music a lot. her family were not able to send her to any music schools, let alone to say buying her any instruments. all of a sudden, i felt a pang of guilt. i was given a chance to learn piano. however, not only i did not truly appreciate the effort my parents have put in, i complained that it was not what i wanted after all. learning ballet was all i have ever wanted. my parents cant afford to send me for ballet lessons during that time. u know how expensive the examination fees and the cost of costumes at different levels are. to compensate it, they allowed me to learn piano from a teacher who was kind enough to charge us at a minimum fee. sigh…being the youngest in the family, i actually had the privilege to choose what i want. as for my brothers, they dont even dare to ask for anything as my family was very poor back then.

sometimes, we are so pampered in our family, in our parents comfort zone, that we took a lot of things for granted. there are so many things that we are now enjoying, things that seem to be more than a luxury to most people. however, we feel that we must have them or we should have them. besides, if we were to have a circle of frens who come from well-to-do families, it will soon make us feel like, we are supposed to have the things we are having now rather than, we should appreciate and cherish them.

i can say that im kind of still in my parents’ comfort zone, despite the fact that im goin to turn 21 this year. no matter how old i am, how mature i am, how good gal or bad gal i am, i know ill still be my parents little girl..forever..

it is really hard for me to really have fun during the school time without having to be worried of all the work piling up
midterm has FINALLY ended
but does tat mean u can rest and take a break?
NO! don even think bout it!
i have one social work term paper due on this Friday
i actually have to submit a 10 pages term paper!!!!
wat the????!!!!!!

there is also a weekly microeconomics quiz comingon wednesday
project meeting on tuesday
tutorials, readings…u name it

i totally understand how Susan feels
bout feeling tired not only physically but mentally as well all the time

forgot to mention, the Financial Accounting Project is due on the beginning of April
after tat, finals coming again.
how happy
what life r we goin through now in NUS??
only we, ourselves, know the best

People who are staying in the Prince George’s Park Hostel should know that
the food sold in both foodcourts are oily and um..not not tasty
well, it is a sad thing.. coz i came from Ipoh, the place where u can find all sorts of GOOD food
being pampered with GOOD food in ipoh for almost 20 years
it was hard to adjust myself to the food here

we were lucky when there is a newly open cafe, K Gourmet in PGP hostel
it is air conditioned, the ambience is not too bad
although the food there is more expensive compared with both the foodcourts
the portion they served is big and the taste is not bad too
we went for a few visits already
we have actually say if we were to have a light lunch
we might get to splurge a bit for dinner in K Gourmet
the cafe serves mostly western food like chicken chops, cakes, salads, sandwiches,etc
suitable for me coz most of the time i would rather have sandwiches than rice with veggie

chicken chop with mashpotato

chicken cutlet

fish and chips

with every maindish u ordered above, u will get a free mushroom soup. not bad uh?

veggie pizza

potato salad (strongly not recommended)

for those who wans a light lunch or light dinner, the sandwiches there are not bad. this is Tuna sandwich. they also have turkey roll, egg sandwich, etc.

overall, this cafe is recommended. especially for those staying in PGP permanently…

FOOD again!!
guess now all of you can see why i am putting on weight
don think the New Year’s Resolution (about slimming down) is valid anymore
pai seh..

* Sui Yen, this is actually the Sushi Buffet we went to in Sakae Sushi in Tiong Bahru Plaza, Singapore. Before this, it was the Japanese Noodle House. in Tiong Bahru Plaza as well.*

We went to my long awaited Sushi Buffet on Valentine’s Day
it costs only $16 and i feel that it is really worth it
coz u can eat as much as u want!
but of coz, if u were to let ur money worth it, u better be a BIG eater man..


this is the hot water supply. self service to refill ur own green tea.





softshell crab roll. i ate 3!!! it is super yummy

deep fried tempura roll. sorry for the blur picture

the vain pot strikes again


this is only one pile of them
the supervisor actually had to collect the plates again and again from our table
coz it kept piling up

time to save more money to go for the second visit. hehe…

p/s: sorry for the limited amount of pictures. i was too busy eating during tat moment..=P