The Unwanted

hAppY nEw yEar!!~!~!~!

HaPpY 2006~!!!~!~!!

as if im counting down..haha
well, din go out on the new year eve
don wanna go to crowded places
lazy to drive
most of all, not allowed to go out
daddy said very dangerous wor
sigh…

anyway, i have planned my new year resolution
since im so FREE!!!
the list goes like this:

-lose 5 kg ( it may sound a lot to u. but i have put on weight for 2KG!!! since i came back to Malaysia. so, i need to get rid of the 2kg first, then the next 3 kg. so,3 kg is not so greedy after all rite? how come im having a feeling that im gonna fail…haha.. some of u might be doubting me also..haha..truly understandable..)

-get a HIGHER CAP for semester 2!! (getting such a LOW , i mean REAL LOW CAP for the 1st semester , had hit me really big… i don wanna graduate without Honours. my parents will kill me. i don wanna leave NUS without an Honours degree. i must have a CAP with at least 3.5 to do my 4th year …*fainting*)

-upgrade my dressing sense.(haha…being an arts student, i shall dress like one. if only…the 5 kg is GONE!! ish.. )

-save more and spend less. ( have been spending alot since back to Malaysia. although it is in ringgit malaysia. BUT….)

-start reading the newspaper. ( i really…desperately..need to increase my general knowledge. don forget, i wanna be intellectual. and STILL trying to be.)

- no more procrastination and laziness.

-have more confidence in myself.

-last but not the least, make this resolution work!!

if you were to have one as well, good luck!!

我一直都想對你說
你給我想不到的快樂
像綠洲給了沙漠
說 你會永遠陪着我 做我的根
我翅膀 讓我飛
也有回去的窩
我願意
我也可以付出一切
也不會可惜

就在一起
看時間流逝
要記得我們相愛的方式

就是愛你愛着你
有悲有喜
平淡也有了意義
就是愛你愛着你
甜蜜又安心
那種感覺就是你

我一直都想對你說
你給我想不到的快樂
像綠洲給了沙漠
說 你會永遠陪着我 做我的根
我翅膀 讓我飛
也有回去的窩

我願意 真的願意
付出所有 也要保護你
在一起 時間繼續流逝
請記得我有多麼的愛你

就是愛你愛着你
不棄不離開不在意
一路有多少風雨
就是愛你愛着你
放在你手心
燦爛的幸福全給你
就是愛你愛着你
我都願意
就是愛你愛着你
要我們在一起

bidding is here again!
*worried*
with all the stress
guess ill be getting a few more new strands of white hair

this semester, the workload is going to be heavy
heavier than the previous semester
*worried*
NUS..never ending work.

gonna bid for
-microeconomics analysis
-macroeconomics analysis
-introduction to social work
-changing landscapes of Singapore
-technopreneurship marketing

recalling how bad my CAP was for the 1st semester…
sigh…
am i really tat stupid or dumb?
very very depressed

sometimes, i would wonder…
why did NUS accept me in the first place?
im having a feeling that im wasting the Singapore’s resources

having a bad feeling for the 2nd semester
hoping everything will turn out well

im back at ipoh
the journey back to ipoh was torturing me
sat in the bus for 8 hours
can’t imagine the journey back to singapore

i feel like im being cheated
when we stopped at johor
i bought one ramli burger
it was happy to see ramli burger after not eating it for months
guess it was a communication problem
the conversation was like this:

me: berapa one ramli burger?
malay aunty: satu empat
me: saya mau dua( im not eating 2 burgers ok? i was ordering for my fren as well)
malay aunty: ini dia ( passing me the 2 burgers)

i received them and paid the aunty RM10
i received RM 2 for the change
i got curious

me: aunty, one burger berapa?
malay aunty: one empat. dua,lapan lar.

i was like ‘ WHAT??!!!’
one burger for 4 dollars??
that burger was like so small
dunno which part of my stomach it can accommodate
rupa-rupanya, the aunty meant one burger for 4 dollars,not one forty
= = ‘
communication problems

going out 2molo for karaoke
guess i won’t sing much
guess too shy to sing since i don sing well
i pity those who go out with me
hahaha
going to pasar malam at night
miss it so much
miss the less-expensive stuff there
cant wait to eat and shop 2molo~!!~!!

i have been going out, going out and going out for these few days
spent quite a lot
feeling so guilty

have been going in and out of the MRT more often
it actually made me see a number of beautiful scenes
beautiful scenes are not scenery but scenes

scene 1:
there was a mummy and a little boy beside her. mummy was patiently reading the story book to him, making facial expressions following the flow of the story. it surprised me that the story book mummy was telling,was not about prince and princess. in fact, it was about volcanos. good choice uh?? to make his son to learn at such an early age.

it reminded me of how my mummy used to tell me stories, patiently teaching me the correct pronunciation and each word. therefore, i would wonder. when our mummy gets older and older, would everyone of us have the patience to read the newspaper to her everyday?

scene 2:
there is one daddy with his daughter. it seemed that his daughter was bored and kept asking daddy to entertain her. daddy, happily making funny faces and tickling the little girl. little girl was laughing so happily. therefore, if one day when our daddy gets older, would we have the patience to entertain him just to make him laugh? would we?

our parents have done so much for us unconditionally. sometimes we have to ask back ourselves, ‘would we treat them back as nice as how they treated us when they need us(or treat them back even much much nicer)?’ , ‘would we take care of them so properly like how they took care of us when we were sick?’

this,u have to answer yourself.